Happiness vs. Fear

The strangest thing about being pregnant so far is the huge contstant swing from being excited, elated, and happy about being pregnant which can in a second turn to fear, concern, and devastation each time the Doctor mentions genetic couseling, fetal testing, and possibility of misscarriage. Plus these books are killing me - I can't stand to read any more about all the things that could go wrong!

When does this fear thing end? Probably never right? - I bet it goes right on through the whole pregnancy and never ends even when the baby gets married and has their own kids!

1st Dr Appt. - Week 6

I have my very first prenatal appointment today. I am a bit nervous becasue I have never had a guy doctor but I am sure it will all be fine. I just got off the phone with the nurse, who took a brief medical history. She seemed really nice. I hope she is there during the actual physical exam.

I am a bit worried about all the prenatal testing. Since this doctor is a high risk OBGYN / Perinatolist they do a lot of testing for chromosomal abnormalities - I hope they don't freak me out.

Plus to make things worse this morning I was dreaming about a bright spot of red blood - so then I had to go check when I woke up - no blood - wheww.

A note from my little passenger:
I have graduated from being the size of a sesame seed and grain of rice and am now the size of an M&M! I am busy with my new little heart beating and growing. If you look really close you might see the spots for my little eyes. My spine is growing fast this week too. I am so busy that I am really making my Mommy tired, but I don't think she minds that much.

Hippie Food

This past week I was to tired that on Monday I went to the grocery store and bought the following:

• 1 Apple
  
• Kashi Cereal
  
• Milk - organic
  
• Apple Juice - organic
  
• 5 Stouffers meals - on sale
  
• Cheese (Jarlesberg, Meunster, Fontina, Cheddar) I obviously felt I needed a little bit of cheese)
  
• Crackers

So that's what I ate all week. Some people were not too happy that I ate Stouffers all week but honestly I had no energy to eat anything else. And it was all I could do to have what I did. There was absoltutely no cooking going on.

Yesterday I left work a bit early so I had a little bit more energy and went to Whole Foods - No frozen foods ok - only organic easy to prepare stuff. I do admit it has been nice today to eat healthy organic foods. The husband calls all the organic foods - hippie food but I do think the organic stuff tastes better.

Symptoms

So everyone keeps asking "How do you feel?" . . . so here's the low down.

• I am super tired - ALL the time!
  
• The acid reflux is killing me! - Go buy stock in Tums!
  
• I have recently started to become lightheaded even if I have eaten and been drinking - water of course.
  
• I really miss the "calm me" - The Effexor really took the edge off my anxiety!
  
• And the future milk dispensers are sore!
  

Flack

Ok - so there weren't too many fans of the test sticks - gee I can't imagine why? I guess I have spent so much time on the "Trying to Conceive" Newsgroups that I have become immune to seeing pics fo the pee sticks. FYI I believe that pics of future parents "doin' it" are called porn.

Oh and for the record - I think I will put the pics of the test sticks in the baby's first picture album!

Pictures are Worth 1000 Words

So the day I left for Ohio I found out . . . . it still doesn't feel quite real! Oh my gosh!

It is still very early - maybe about 4 weeks - the size of a sesame seed. My first prenatal appt is this coming week. If you are interested in charting check out my basal body temp chart!

Hopefully everything will be ok. Oh we also found a place for the nursery. Check out my other blog site!

Friday Aug. 4, 2006


Sun. Aug. 13, 2006

Up . . Up . . .And AWAY!

So I fly away his Friday on the red eye to Columbus to meet up with the husband on Saturday. He is right now on his way to Minnesota for work. We actually have an appt at 1pm on Saturday to see our favorite house on our search! Then we are going to look at houses like gang busters so we can make an offer and get it in contract before we leave on Aug. 13. Oh my god we actually have to sign papers next week and write big checks. The husband is freaking out becasue I told him how much closing usually costs for a $150k house - hopefully we will get it rolled into the seller's concessions.

How is it possible to be so happy, excited, and terrified at the same time?!